Week 4

What I did:

This week I finished my three models of possible final projects and wrote a proposal for one of them. I went to the figure drawing class on saturday. I drew a little bit more in my sketchbook. I watched many videos of William Kentridge. I read about the de-medicalization of Homosexuality. And, I sat around thinking a lot about my values and made visual representation of them.

What I accomplished/ discovered/ encountered:

I would have never thought that IP would create such a world wind of emotions inside of me. I mean, at the beginning of the day I feel wonderful, fully confidant in my direction, and then by the end of the day I am beaten down, scared and confused all over again. Looking at my personal values this week has put some things in perspective for me. I realized that my values are influenced by others in my life and it put a lot of strain on what I want to create. These values have made me want to censor my work. It may seem wrong to allow others to influence/censer what I want to make, but I realized that this is a challenge for me. Having some censorship in my work is important because it creates some ambiguity. I realized that narration is important to me. And, ambiguity can create a sense of poetry that I am looking for in my work. I realized that saying a little can say a lot. With my past work, I have been very literal and “in your face” about my subject and context. I can still create imagery that is emotionally driven, and powerful without being so explicit. I want to start focusing on the little things, not the whole picture.

What is next:

I will continue exploring and doing what I have been doing, research and making. But I am going to start writing a lot more. I am going to set 1 hour aside each day for me to write.